I am very aware this morning of the gifts and blessings of my life…like a friend who is teaching an exercise class for free, getting to soak up the sun and the views in Sun Valley, Ryan doing very well attending school full time and reading like a maniac, having time to myself to get treatments, Julianna transitioning out of an uncooperative stage, Mike and I going to counseling, being able to save for a family vacation to Legoland and getting a great deal on a condo during a sold out summer season, friends who are willing to watch our animals, a wonderful place to work and two new knitting projects to name a few!
These are some amazing gifts and I am thankful. But here is the crazy thing…I notice that I am spending less time thinking about these great things and more time thinking about something I need to let go of! What a smack in the face. It would seem that it would feel better to let go and get on to focusing on the bounty that surrounds me. It is obvious that, what I need to let go of, is keeping me from really appreciating the work God is doing in my life. So just do it! Right? Easier said than done.
It is so hard sometimes to let go. I’ve been praying for a change of heart, change of mind, cutting cords, talking about it, talking to it, writing about it, visualizing it….but it is still there. So this morning in my quiet time, the answer I got was LISTEN! Talk less, do less and listen more. God is working in me and on me to let go of this situation but it may take time. The gifts around me are there to encourage me as I struggle with transformation, remind me of how blessed and loved I am even while I am feeling the pain that accompanies letting go.
