A Heart Driven Life

 I really did mean shift and not another similar word often associated with family dynamics! It might just be me, but after spending some time by myself with my family in Kansas City, I noticed that things are changing between us. I became aware of a new relationship between my dad, my step-mom, my grandmother and myself. It was one that not only seems honest, open and respectful as it has been for awhile, but is seems more mutually caring.

For years my parents cared for me and my grandparents spoiled me. Then for years my parents tried to care for me and I refused but still allowed my grandparents to spoil me. Then came the years where I wanted my parents to care for me and my grandparents to spoil me and neither would. After that came the point where I allowed my parents and granparents to spoil me and I was able to give gratitude and appreciation from my heart.

Thses days the I’ve noticed the shift toward my parents and grandparents allowing me to care for them. They all gave me the opportunity to give them craniosacral and heart centered therapy treatments when I was there. (That was so neat!)  They each are allowing me to do little things for them, appreciating my opinion and welcoming my support in their lives. As a result, I have felt a deeper heart connection and love between us. It is wonderful!

I feel it is often hard for all of us, at one time or another, to allow others to care for us. I see that as our parents and grandparents grow older they may become aware of their need to be cared for. It feels like a blessing to me that my family is allowing be to return the love they have given me for so many years. It is truley a gift to grow together…be it old, round or closer!

I am shocked that it has been a month since I have written.  Thank you to those who have reminded me of such and asked for more.  Sometimes when there is so much going on, it is hard to get a handle on what it all means.  It takes time and energy to process all that is in my heart, much less get it down on paper.  Let’s just say that there is nothing like time with family, time away from family, time by myself, time with surrounded by energy vortexes, time with a soul sibling and time rebirthing to really shake things up and rock me to the core!  Whoa!

As I sort things out, I will try to put into words the visions of my spirit, the transformations of my soul and the feelings in my heart.  Thank you to those who have touched my life over the past month and those who have held space for me, be it through thought, prayer, meditation or hope.  I love and appreciate all of you!