Today was a tough day. I could have starred in my own Hee Haw skit singing “Gloom, Despair and Agony on Me”, only it wouldn’t have been a satire. Some days are like that. You just feel kind of gray and that’s okay. It started when I woke up this morning from a dream that was heart wrenching and very unsettling. I immediately wrote it all down and prayed for clarity, wisdom and strength. It has been heavy on my heart every minute of the day.
I also struggled with listening and seeing my children fight. It hurts me so much to see them hurt each other. Even though everyone says they fought with their siblings and all kids do it. I just don’t get it. It seems simple to me. If you want to feel good, be loving to the people around you and keep your hands to yourself!! I’m really feeling at the end of my rope with it!
Who knows, some of the sibling rivalry could have triggered this, but Ryan had one of his hardest days in almost 6 months. Anxiety disorders can play such unfair tricks on the mind and Ryan allowed it to wreck havoc on him. He was in agony after his half day at school because he got a 90 on his spelling test and somehow convinced himself that he got a C which is basically the same thing as an F!
Then my car suddenly acquired a squeal that could wake the dead. I am not exaggerating. The kids tried to convince me to let them walk home because they couldn’t stand to be in the car with that terrible noise. I have quarantined the car until diagnosis and treatment are complete.
So what do you do with a day like this? Put on your overalls and sing. Yes! Or you could order pizza, play Wii, blow off the laundry, have a glass of wine and giggle at your husband in his former pest control, now completely and utterly filthy, auto repair jumpsuit… driving a squealing car around the neighborhood!! Glory be to God that I got through this day and I’ll surely get through tomorrow because I’ll be driving the other car!
January 9, 2009 at 6:54 pm
Oh you are funny! Fan Belt Screams are the worst!
But the fighting gets to me as well. Being raised an only child, I cannot understand why they cannot just get along. UGH! One thing we do here when tensions get high. We have the incentive of a treat, like Goody’s or a Restaurant dinner. But, they must say only positive, edifying things to one another all day, if they cannot say something good, walk away before something negative comes out. It works, it rewires the brain and we go weeks and months without WWIII.
Love you
January 10, 2009 at 5:36 pm
It’s not just me? You are not the only one that has days like that. I guess they are to make you appreciate the good days all the more. Since my kids are both boys, I assume all the fighting is normal and just add to the chaos by yelling at them both! One day when the kids are grown we will say “I don’t enjoy the house being so quiet”?! Really? Are you sure?
Also, at least you have a husband who may have a clue to what to do with the car problem. We would have to take our car to the dealership..get an estimate…yada yada yada. I did not marry Tim the Toolman by any stretch of the imagination.
By the way, please don’t let Ryan tell Sean that a 90 is basically a C and a C is like an F. We celebrate C’s in my house.